Journey of Solitude


The Black Dog

A black dark dog is always behind us! Who that black dog? Is that real? 

“The Black Dog” is a metaphor for depression. Yes, I meant it. We all have that dark black dog behind or surrounded us. I would say, this black dog purposefully kept on us by either our family or society. Initially, it was pressure on performance. Since childhood, we have been taught to behave well, smile nice, sit properly, walk properly and all those black dog pressure continued. When started schooling, again this black does pressure us to perform and earn marks. The black dog grew with us and one day it equaled our size.

When I started earning, I started seeing this black do everywhere I go. He was always behind me and sometimes he walked crossing me. I tried to push him away and even sometimes I tried to run away from him. But he always stood taller than me. 

The savior 

I was not worried, but I was keen to show everyone in my life and the society that I manage my dark dog. I was in the thought that in life everything practically manageable and I can keep growing. The time and age proved that I was wrong… Let’s learn How?

There was something very unique in my life and many times I haven’t noticed that. All those life phases when I was in a fight with that dark dog, I haven’t noticed one compassion was always there for me. Vismithams, that was me, my dreams, my passion, my choices, my taste, and vismithams still the extravaganza of my life. 

Vismithams taught me to tame my black dog and it took 37 years of my life when I learned to tame him perfectly. 

Depression – the black dog

You know! every Black Dog has a collar. Why? Because depression is a manageable, treatable mental illness. What you have to figure out is how to snap a leash on that collar, and regain control, when your Black Dog breaks loose. I wish all who living with their black dog would learn to tame him perfectly and open the door of extravaganza of living. 

What Is Solitude?

Loneliness is marked by a sense of isolation. Solitude, on the other hand, is a state of being alone without being lonely and can lead to self-awareness.

From the outside, solitude and loneliness look a lot alike. Both are characterized by solitariness. But all resemblance ends at the surface.

Loneliness is a negative state, marked by a sense of isolation. One feels that something is missing. It is possible to be with people and still feel lonely perhaps the most bitter form of loneliness.

Solitude is the state of being alone without being lonely. It is a positive and constructive state of engagement with oneself. Solitude is desirable, a state of being alone where you provide yourself wonderful and sufficient company. Solitude is a time that can be used for reflection, inner searching or growth or enjoyment of some kind. 

Solitude suggests peacefulness stemming from a state of inner richness. It is a means of enjoying the quiet and whatever it brings that is satisfying and from which we draw sustenance. It is something we cultivate. Solitude is refreshing; an opportunity to renew ourselves. In other words, it replenishes us.

Solitude gives us a chance to regain perspective. It renews us for the challenges of life. It allows us to get (back) into the position of driving our own lives, rather than having them run by schedules and demands from without.

Solitude restores body and mind. Loneliness depletes them.

Today I solitude myself. People use to say that we should not dig our past and I strongly oppose this. Today I dig my past to shape my future. I dig everyone who came to my life, every occasion which either given happiness or sadness, every opportunity I either missed or used, every moment either I lived or survived, and everything either I had or would have. 

Remember, there is no winning or losing in life… and I also never dig my wins or looses. Our Life created with people we surrounded with, opportunities we came across and circumstances we have been into. 

Today either I forgive others or free them, for everything I had from them or they have given for me. 

My journey of solitude continues..thanking everything and everyone. Thank you